I hate myself

I hate myself for being Nice. I hate myself for being accomodating. There is just friggin lots of things to do that puts my mind in a swirl! I cannot focus and i hate myself for it! I hate what's happening to me!

Aviva Ironman 70.3

Today... we went out... once again to paint ECP yellow... like we always do when there's an Aviva Event. The company's big on branding... and yellow being our corporate colour... we were out there..... putting as much yellow as we can! For the second year running, we sponsored the Ironman 70.3 in Singapore. About 1400 participants took part this time round.... that made everyone's adrenaline pumping the entire day. I guess everyone had their reasons for being there..... for the participants... some would want to win... some would want to beat their own personal best... for others.. it was just to challenge themselves to finish the race.... overcoming any adversities there are in the way. Then, for non-athletes like me.... it got me inspired to wanna stay healthy and start execising more often. Anyway... to all participants.... it was a job well done.... having to complete 2km of swimming in the open water, 90km biking and 21km running.... that's no easy feat. Kudos m

F8! Another Grand Prix Moment! ;P

Yes. Hello Kitty and friends have come to this little sunny island for a car race. Corny?! Ermm... I went to take a look anyway. I'm no big Hello Kitty fan... but thought why not just have a look @ what's going on since I stay a near the Chinese Garden anyway. Hello Kitty lovers.... go to for more info yah?! The lanterns were really quite pretty.... though I honestly feel... it isjust something to get parents to bring their kids to. Well... what ever it is... it was nice going to the garden for an evening stroll with Hwa.

It's been a long long week...

...I'm glad it is over. The week started off with me scurrying around, trying to finish up whatever work I have, so I can start on new tasks. Well... from time to time, i will have this 3 months schedule where I pack it so tightly that I will find myself gasping for air. Yes. I like to do many things in a short period . Coz, I always make it a point to acheive some big things by the time it's appraisal season. But.... as my portfolio grows with requirement from HQ in UK.... i find myself more than just gasping for air. Sinking a little i guess. They say they will get me someone to share my load... but no signs of that new pair of hands yet. Crap. Anyway..... i din start any new tasks this week. In fact by mid week... I was already slacking. Oh well! Come mid week, one of my dear friend, B, broke some sad news to me. Something happened to her, which broke my heart. And when she told me about it.... I was just too shocked for words. I hated myself for telling her " Frankly

All the hype about babies...

After the national day rally.... suddenly the talk in town is about having babies... giving mothers 4 instead of 3 months maternity... giving 6 days childcare leave.... govt co-sharing the cost of IVF... and the list goes on. However, in this day and age... where independence, ability to provide for ourselves, buying ourselves the pradas and LVs of the world has made us work harder in the corporate world than our mothers have. This also means, women hold some important positions in almost every company. With the govt coming up with such fanastic ideas to offset the cost of having kids.... it could also mean decreasing the chances of us getting the career we want, unless companies are open enough to accomodate the lifestyles of the supermothers we wish we could be. I have had my fair share of job interviews. And 90% of the time, the question of whether I am intending to start a family soon comes up. Can I say it is discrimination? Maybe not. But it makes me think twice whenever I wan

Weighty issues

Plonked myself on the weighing scale two days back. Eyes almost popped out when i saw where the needle ended up. Tried the digital scale... the result was worst. I recalled my weight was still in good range just a week back. What happened? Has my weight gone up like how cost of living has? Sigh.... adds so much to my angst as well. Having a husband who's not at all encouraging makes it event worst. Meen: I look lik XX kg? Hwa: I think so. Meen: What you mean you think so? Hwa: You din use to have that bluge. Meen: No...i always had it. If I put on more kg... and never lose them...will you still love me? Hwa: You mean you will allow yourself to get so heavy? Meen: Nevermind! Time to go to the gym more often....

Love lost....learn to treasure

Am now waiting to watch the re-run of my fav tvbs drama serial..."heart of greed" or 溏心風暴. Todays' episode will show how the young lawyer die from a car accident... with the regret of not telling this girl how much she means to him and vice versa. They have been contemplating to bear their hearts out to each other.... but before that can happen.... he dies. And.... he died becoz he was thinking of how to help her fight her next case. Something that will make every softie cry. We think that such sob stories only happen on the tele.... but no. I was surfing around, and came across a blog. At first glance, it felt like a lovey dovey kind of blog, that spells out all the happiness of a pair of young lovers. Read further, and you will realise the guy has passed away 2 years ago, in a freak diving accident, which was also on national papers. It's been two years, but every entry the girl writes... you can feel that pain she has gone through as it happened just when he pro