Meeningfully

Dear Jonas Bee, These days, one of mummy's favourite past time is to scroll through photos we took over your 3 years. I miss the times when you were super chubs, the times when I can cradle you in just one arm, and the times I can baby-wear you everywhere.

Today, as I reflect upon the time I knew I was pregnant with J, through the period I have been a mother, there's one thing I am truly thankful for. The presence of a special group of friends who made the journey so much easier just by being present, be it physically or virtually.  I appreciate that I can always just pop into our chat room on whatsapp to rant, to share, to complain or simply just to chat. We were housemates and friends back in our uni days. We probably shared some really deep dark secrets, countless good times and many waking hours together. After 3 years of living together, I drifted from the group while the other 2 ladies remained close friends. And when I thought the closeness we shared is probably going to be just a memory for me, God brought us back together with us having our kids all in the same year.  Now, I will feel weird if I don't check in on them or don't hear that familar beep on my handphone for more than 3 days. They were the first

What started out as a bright cheery Sunday, with plans to bring the tot out for a swim turned out to be the longest day of my life, one which I nearly lost. I started having sharp abdominal pains at 12pm, which I thought was just severe gastric. So I popped in 2 panadols, and took a short nap with J. I got up before J did, felt better, and tried to take some food, which I later regretted because it all got regurgitated. J got up, wanted a cuddle which I obliged... causing the acute pain to come back. Not sure what was going on, I made Hwa send J to my mum's so he can take me to the doctors later. He returned to find me pale and unconscious on the toilet bowl. He dragged me out, and wanted me to get changed to visit the doctors. I couldn't, and requested to nap again, which he left me to it. After about 30 min, I tried to stand, only to find myself losing consciousness again. That was when Hwa called the ambulance for help. The paramedics told me I was extremely pale,

We just came back from our holiday in Hong Kong, and it was a vacation that didn't quite feel like one.  All plans on what to do, where to eat etc did not materialize because it rained out on us. More on the trip in the following weeks. While I did feel disappointed at some point, on hindsight, being away from home, gave me the opportunity to spend quality time with the hub & bub. More importantly, it allowed me the luxury of time to reflect on things that have been bothering me for some time. 1) WORK:  It's been some time since I openly blogged about my work. Days leading up to the trip was demoralizing, where I repeatedly questioned my own ability and whether I am cut out to continue doing what I'm doing. The amount of things to look into while on a holiday made me wonder if i should cancel the trip altogether. On the flip side, the trip taught me (once again) to learn to let go. Allow others to take control although part of me knows the project will not turn

Since J turned one, feedback of him hitting his friends and teachers became more frequent. He does not hit us at home, but his quick temper and occasional tantrums were not uncommon. Rightly pointed out by his teachers, frequency of such behavior has increased after he became a year old. Well, it bothers me... a lot! It is like the terrible twos came earlier than expected. And of course, it bothers me more that I cannot be around him guiding him along. Granted he is at the stage where he is more aware of what goes on around him, his curiosity leads him to do things that usually gets him into trouble. Remove him from danger, he screams and wails. Take things away from him, be prepared to face the fury of the dragon. His lack of patience is what usually causes the whole slew of tantrums and tears. While some may say, this will pass as he is only a year old, we want to actively do something to nurture, teach J the right things and tame the dragon if i may add. I sometimes won

With the craziness behind us... the hfmd episode x2, the house move and the launch of a major campaign at work, i am attempting to relive new year by making some "resolutions". Or rather to make a list of what I want to achieve in the next few months.  1 ) Focus on the blog  This space has been my enclave for about 7 years now. Those who have been faithfully following me will realise that this space used to be a place for my meaningless mumblings about daily grouses more than anything else. This has slowly evolved to me talking more about mum things and other experiences I wanna share.  So, I have planned something for this space to make it more meaningful for my readers as I believe changes can only be for the better yah? Well... so do stay tuned.  2) Taking J out more often As we got busy with renovation planning and house moving, we deprived J of many weekends of time outside of the house. There are many places I want to bring the little one such as the zoo, the be