Reboot and Recharge - a 2018 reflection

Both the man and I have the habit of having our fortunes (or prospects) read before we start a new year.

Not that we are superstitious, nor do we believe everything we hear. However, we feel the reading  forms some guidance on how we will tackle the challenges that may come our way.

As the age old saying goes, our destinies are in our own hands and knowing what may come, I believe, will help us make the decisions we deem fit and also prepare for any tough situations. 

2018 was no different.

We started the year with an indication that it is going to be a tough one.

More so for me. I was warned that it will be a bumpy ride on the career front, and it sure was.

I made the hard decision to let go of the job I grew to love a lot,  and have taken a lot of pride in. Every job comes with its fair share of trials and tribulations. This was my sweet spot.

However, when situations such as being a new mother of 2 after 6 years of winging is as a FTWM (full time working mum) of one, it was like pressing the start button all over again.

Perhaps this time slightly more calm with a lot more on the mind because of the first-born's "looming" formal school life starting as well.

As much as I aspire to be a superwoman in my own right, something had to give, and when the decision to move on was made, it was clearly family first .

A career with increasing expectations will without a doubt put a lot of stress above what was already in store for me. Not forgetting a strong cloud of doubt that I can make it in my career was cast over me because of unnecessary comparisons and strong competition. So I opted out.

I hated my decision, but honestly, I don't regret it.

Right now, while I do not feel as fulfiled and sufficiently challenged at work, I have found time to work on some projects that will enrich me career wise.

More importantly, my evenings are not as hurried, leaving me precious time to connect with the kids especially the first born.

My weekends are now dedicated to the family, and I sometimes find time to get my nails done or get my hair coloured.

So while I feel I haven't been able to keep up with my super FTWM persona that has often stuck with me, life really isn't  as bad as how our fortune said it will be.

Maybe it is really just our own perception of what's good and what's not.

Hello 2019! 

This year, we haven't had prospects for the year read.

Perhaps we will skip it because we have been up to a good start with the first born breezing through his first 3 days in Primary School.

I will taking this period of transition in my career to focus on these 3 things:
- Family first
- A Better Meen
- Couple Goals

I want to practise more patience especially with situations that are beyond my control. I want to be more positive and judge less of people I do not see eye to eye with. So, yes. Going back to simple basics.

As age catches up, and as I look back at the past couple of years, I truly believe many of the decisions we made, and what happened in our lives, happened for a reason. Like there is a plan. God's plan.

When we managed to earn a profit sum from the sale of our matrimonial house, little did we realise that it was to help fund the multiple IVFs we went through; which in turn was because we were destined to only have C join us at a point when J was well again from his Juvenile Dermatomyositis.

So, I am now taking whatever comes in my stride, and riding the wave as they come.

2019! I think I am ready for you!