Looking bleak on day 12

Seriously, I don't know if this will eventually get posted. But I think, as always, i need the outlet to make myself feel a little better.

It is day 11 past the insemination. The cramps got worst and for the entire day, I was afraid to visit the loo.

When I did, I saw more red.

Was it implantation or a sign that we should drawn the curtains on this cycle.

A pregnancy test will help, although it is quite early to try.

My mind is a blank and I really want to cry. Not again I thought.

The TTC journey is a rather lonely one. A VERY lonely one in fact.