Starting all over again

I made a pretty brave decision this week to start the whole TTC (trying to conceive) process again. To some, that means counting the days, noting when period comes, when's next ovulation, doing the deed and then hoping for the best.

My journey is slightly different.

Mine involves needles, blood work, ultrasounds and whatever else which I cannot remember at this point.

We know we want a number 2, sooner than later given that these fertility issues may escalate with age.

How soon we weren't sure. All we knew was we had a scheduled appointment with Dr Fong to discuss options and just like that, we decided in a split second to go ahead with SO-IUI again... and to do so now.

Only when I paid the $1,000 and walked out of the doctor's office that it hit me that we just made a life changing decision.

While being secretly hopeful that this will be a one try affair like how Jonas came about, I am also mentally trying to prepare myself for the worst. It could take a month... or far longer.

At this point, all I can do is pray.

And, to those who's asking when's number 2 coming, herein lies the answer. I could be jinxing the whole process by sharing this here, but we will never know what lies ahead.

Wish me luck, will you?