Restless & mini mid-term panic
Christmas is over. Am now waiting for arrival of the New Year, so i can get my life back.
Since finding out I am pregnant, I feel that things haven't been quite the same, mainly due to the lull work period, and of course the frequent fatigue Beanie's causing me. All these have somewhat made me a sloth..doing close to nothing most of the time. Worst is, I am halfway through my pregnancy, and unlike many mummies, I have done nothing to prepare for Beanie's arrival. Not sure if I am a cool mum (pun intended) or just simply nonchalant...taking a "come what may" attitude!
Work wise, I feel something unpleasant is brewing. Morale in the office have been all time low, and it is really not hleping when i feel i could do so much more but not given the opportunity to do so. Fallen from grace once again? Maybe. Hence, the quiet wish that the New Year will bring spirits back on track.
Anyway, since I am on leave till the New Year, I took a teeny weeny step by making a list of things I need to get for Beanie....and...panic is slowly but surely setting in.
Firstly, i think i have no space at home!! I can't touch my brother-in-law's room....which means Beanie's playpen + storage needs will have to go into my already very small room! Urgh!
Secondly, i need to reorganise mine and hwa's wardrobes to make space for Beanie... but... mum-in-law says i cannot do anything to the room until my 8th month! Seriously.... by the time I am 8 months pregnant, I will be darn huge! I don't think I will have any spare energy to pack lor! $%^&#
And, this is only the beginning....
Also, I will be going for my 20th week anomaly scan tomorrow.... while I am exciting see Beanie again after a month, I am actually also worried of what the outcome may be. Crossing fingers.... praying hard all will be well.