yesterday…

The downpour this morning did not do any justice to everybody’s moods. Well… at least I speak from my heart, and from what I see around me.

I woke up with the determination to smile, be happy, and that life will still go on despite the storm.  Doesn’t quite help. Doesn’t quite change anything….

When I look around … things are REALLY  not the same anymore. No smiles… no bustling activity… no chatter….no warmth.

Tears starting welling up once again….

I thought I was done with the tears last night. Apparently not. Everytime someone walks past and ask me if I am alright… i become expressionless and speechless.  In all honesty….what do you expect me to say? Or how do you expect me to react?

The impact is so great that my emotions got the better of me this time round, and I thought it wouldn’t.

All I want to do now is crawl under the blanket… hug my bolster and not think anymore.

I don’t know why it hurts so much. Please tell me.

…. perhaps it is a sign…..

Comments

  1. >hugs< gal, althou i dun know wat happened, but i tink it's perfectly alright to cry when u need to. the meenie i know is strong, and will overcome any obstacles. But of cos when u need a break, take a rest. embrace urself and walk again. the journey is far ahead. Find new reasons to smile, new reasons to live for. Ur friends are all around and will give u the strength. =) Just a phone call away! Cheers!

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  2. hello flo...

    :) Thanks for the hugz... Can't quite say what actually happened. But yes... I know things will move on.

    U know what... we haven seen each other like for ages!!!!!!

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  3. Anonymous12:47 pm

    Hey babe, hope you are feeling better now? I remember sobbing in my office during my low :(

    I'm gonna "sing" u a song to cheer you up:

    Higher

    When dreaming I'm guided through another world
    Time and time again
    At sunrise I fight to stay asleep
    'Cause I don't want to leave the comfort of this place
    'Cause there's a hunger, a longing to escape
    From the life I live when I'm awake
    So let's go there
    Let's make our escape
    Come on, let's go there
    Let's ask can we stay?
    Can you take me higher?
    To the place where blind men see
    Can you take me higher?
    To the place with golden streets
    Although I would like our world to change
    It helps me to appreciate
    Those nights and those dreams
    But, my friend, I'd sacrifice all those nights
    If I could make the Earth and my dreams the same
    The only difference is
    To let love replace all our hate
    So let's go there
    Let's make our escape
    Come on, let's go there
    Let's ask can we stay?
    Up high I feel like I'm alive for the very first time
    Up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
    And make them mine

    The real deal is here:
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ea_iZ3NfwSU

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  4. Hi Yammie,

    U ok...?

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  5. Mae, I guess you are probably the person who have been where I am now. You had to let your girl go mths ago... I had to do the same... just that the impact was far greater for me...

    Yammie, I am ok now... thanks!
    We catch up soon k?

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  6. yeah its soon to be called donkey years lor. haha. can catch up when u free, or when u intend to visit celine too! its nice to be updated n in contact in blogs at least =)

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