Meeningfully

i dun want to go to work tomorrow. In fact…. i am dreading it. i wish i can have more time to work on UrbanNook. There’s so much i can do … but time is not a luxury now. i am yearning for a beach getaway. i want to do absolutely nothing for a month. i am getting extremely pressured…. to do two person’s job. i dun know how long i can hold out. i hope stress does not get the better of me. i need to stay focused but i can’t seem to. project b is getting no where, which adds to the list of things i am most worried about. i want to go to bed now, but i am afraid that when i open my eyes…. it’s time to go to work. i am tired. Good night.

Finally…after months of hard work trying to set up our online shop, it’s finally up and running. Well…not quite the perfect set-up yet… but i promise it will just get better with time! Other than my signature handcrafted jewellery…there are other chic and trendy items which we purchased from overseas. Help us spread the word yah?!

The downpour this morning did not do any justice to everybody’s moods. Well… at least I speak from my heart, and from what I see around me. I woke up with the determination to smile, be happy, and that life will still go on despite the storm.  Doesn’t quite help. Doesn’t quite change anything…. When I look around … things are REALLY  not the same anymore. No smiles… no bustling activity… no chatter….no warmth. Tears starting welling up once again…. I thought I was done with the tears last night. Apparently not. Everytime someone walks past and ask me if I am alright… i become expressionless and speechless.  In all honesty….what do you expect me to say? Or how do you expect me to react? The impact is so great that my emotions got the better of me this time round, and I thought it wouldn’t. All I want to do now is crawl under the blanket… hug my bolster and not think anymore. I don’t know why it hurts so much. Please tell me. …. perhaps it is a sign…..