Someone commented on how she sometimes admires me on how I shoulder my various responsibilities. Well... I am flattered, and obviously take it as a compliment. But, really… there is an internal struggle every single day to want to do things that I really love. I adore my family. This makes me try to get myself involved in their activities, to support them in whatever way possible, as long as it is within my means. This, Hwa always says I give too much and take too little… esp. when it is obvious mum loves bro so much more. Guess, it does not matter to me as much, though it hurts once in a while, as long as they are happy. I believe God sees it…and that’s adequate. I dun know when it started…. I am by nature quite a self centred person. But when my family is in need… I will avail myself whatever it takes. Well…. This sounds like self-praise… trust me it is not. Given a choice, I truly want to do so many more things. Then there is my OTHER family…. My live-in family. Living with someo