change is the only constant…

Over a short period of a month, there’s been almost a change in  the people front almost every week. I think, today was the one change that made me slip into a mini depression. Someone who taught me a lot in this job, someone who supports all my initiatives, and is 100% committed to a common goal of putting our customers at the heart of what we do. Someone who’s always so positive…. someone who rose through the ranks… someone who’s always encouraging me on…. never giving up. She has decided to step down to spend time @ home with the kiddies. I think she made the right decision as nothing beats watching your lovely children grow up day on day…. taking their first step, speaking their first word, reading their first book….. While i wish her all the best…. i know I am going to miss her dearly. Don’t know how everything will turn out to after she leaves. All I can tell myself is to press on… tomorrow will be better! To this lovely lady… i will miss u. All the best to you!

chinese chicken . fruit platter . caffeine overdose…

… chocolate éclairs, intensed , dark and dingy meeting room, planning , timelines, boomz, people in the radio, undernourished kids , exhaustion, worried, still worrying, 9 Oct , info overload, fun & laughter , drama king, devil beside me…. That kinda sums up my day. Nothing extraordinary, but that’s all I can remember of today.  It’s going to be a tough tough month ahead before i go for my vacation. Is it their way of pushing me over the fence? Bless my soul.

a “twix” of my life

Someone offered me some chocolates in this really cute bear bottle. The mini twix bar caught my eye. I cannot remember when was the last time I savoured and truly enjoyed a bar of twix. It’s been my all time favourite bar of cadbury choc…. but can’t find it here in Singapore. Being my preferred choice, also brings me lots of very pleasant memories. The first time I had a twix was when I was studying in Perth. I have always loved the 3 years there…I always feel at peace just thinking of how carefree and simple things were back then. A simple bar of twix brings me back to the days when Ms P. would go out running her errands… and coming home with a pack of twix for me and a bar of fruit and nut for yammie… As housies… we always try to make little efforts to buy little pressies for one another, just to make each other’s day. Although we never always saw eye to eye,  never really agreed on everything… but i guess the 3 years spent together held many good memories… Well… at least i

what’s life like on the other side?

The past couple of weeks have been really hard to manage. Day on day, i find it extremely hard to get out of bed to go to work. Work has been piling up … and you could probably picture me hidden behind piles of documents and files… all waiting for me give them some tender loving care. But… while the world does not stop revolving because i feel like I am drowning, i wish i can just drop dead and maybe all will then end. As extreme as it may sound… that’s what i feel at the end of each day. What’s most unwelcoming is when some other selfish people threaten to take away what means so much to me in this job. With so little time on hand, i really don’t need to find myself fighting for other people’s job if everyone can just work together amicably. At times like this, I often wonder what’s life like on the other side. Don’t ask me which side…. any side will do.

going with the wind

While walking home from the train station, had lots on my mind. Saw a few bikes zoom pass me… and this brought back lots of memories for me. Memories of days when life was so much more simple… so much more carefree. Hubz & I used to go around everywhere on our humble super4. That’s our first vehicle together, and served us really well. Always looked forward to those nights when Hubz pick me up from work back to his home …… going against/with the wind, taking  away whatever troubles we had at that moment. Life was simple then…. work, home, sleep, eat….work again….home, sleep & eat. Work was simple… never needing to bring stuff back…. never finding myself embroiled in unnecessary office trouble. Progression takes away all simplicity… but sometimes i wonder if this is what i want. I am a simple person, with simple dreams…. yearning for that simple life. Give me back my super4 days.

my favourite things…

Lyrics | Maria - My Favorite Things lyrics I found myself humming to the tune of this song on my way to the train station after a not so happy day. While humming… i feel my spirits lifted a teeny weeny bit. Guess it really works! I pictured Maria in “The Sound of Music” dancing away on her four poster bed… with the 7 kids tucked into the bed on a stormy night… and then life doesn’t seem all that bad anymore! Well…. the past two weeks have been quite horrid in my own terms. Feeling tired and weary. Probably it’s a sign to take a long long break. Am contemplating resting for a good 3 months to recharge… and maybe even re-evaluate what else I would want to do with my life. Of coz, at times like this, being able to keep a job is probably a blessing and not a given. Hence…having my various financial commitments… I can carry on dreaming….:P The next best option I have now is to simply remember my favourite things… and then I don’t feeeeeeeeellll so bad! All i want to do

just say it…

all it takes is for two people to be less assuming, less demanding, more accommodating, less antagonistic…. and all will be well. With these constant misunderstandings, now she thinks you don’t care about her, and she thinks you are a selfish jerk…. It is no wonder you can never be compared to the other…. and watever you do can never be matched-up. This is what makes my blood boil! Sometimes…. all you need to do is just say it. Say what you feel rather than keep quiet all the time…or antagonize her. Time to stand up for what’s right….