I don't know if such a word even exist. Anyway... my journey of starting a family, with the situation I am faced with is seemingly getting a bit over the top for me.
I twitch at every pain and discomfort, hoping it means something to only face disappointment every single time. Sometimes, I admit I seem to be creating my own signs.. It's probably all psychological.
I have tried to blog less about my TTC journey so as not to bore people following my blog, but when there is no one to talk abt this... Or should I say no one who has had similar experiences tfor me share this in detail with .... It's tough. Really tough.
But... I do take comfort in knowing that I am not alone, In fact I am part of a statistic. Whenever the little twitches get to me, I will start googling to see if it is a sign of pregnancy... or just my mind playing tricks on me! There are many women out there who have been through worst than I have... so... i am really learning to let go... give myself more time... and be glad that I am alive each morning.
Also, i shouldn't stop writing in here about this trying journey... for I now know... there will be other ladies who are just like me... frantically searching the web for that little bit of re-assurance. So... if whatever I share here and help someone feel better... than why not...