There is this thing that I have so badly wanted for a long time.

Now, I see light at the end of the tunnel, with a pretty considerable chance of getting what I want ( or so I think).

But... I get pangs of guilt hitting me just the thought of this possibility.

Perhaps I never really wanted it in the first place. Perhaps certain things are best kept as an unattainable want. Perhaps it is a way for me to learn to appreciate the beauty of what I already have ( which sometimes is not as apparent).

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