yesterday…

The downpour this morning did not do any justice to everybody’s moods. Well… at least I speak from my heart, and from what I see around me.

I woke up with the determination to smile, be happy, and that life will still go on despite the storm.  Doesn’t quite help. Doesn’t quite change anything….

When I look around … things are REALLY  not the same anymore. No smiles… no bustling activity… no chatter….no warmth.

Tears starting welling up once again….

I thought I was done with the tears last night. Apparently not. Everytime someone walks past and ask me if I am alright… i become expressionless and speechless.  In all honesty….what do you expect me to say? Or how do you expect me to react?

The impact is so great that my emotions got the better of me this time round, and I thought it wouldn’t.

All I want to do now is crawl under the blanket… hug my bolster and not think anymore.

I don’t know why it hurts so much. Please tell me.

…. perhaps it is a sign…..