What would you do?

If one day, your husband comes to you and tell you that he is considering taking up an overseas posting for a year... what would you do?

For me... i honestly... do not know.

Head says: Sure! Go ahead! It's a good opportunity & for career progressive, then why not?

Heart says: No!!! Hell No!!

I mean, it is not a simple yes or no question. It is also not a decision that can be made overnight. We are married. There are many considerations. And, i don't know if I can cope without him. Yes... it's a time to be independent, which i have no qualms that I am capable of doing so. But... for him to leave, and drop a whole load of weight on me.... to look after the house, care for his mother, on top of my already heavy responsibilites of my parents, my cousins in philippines + my work, without a pillar... where would that leave me. And, I am no matter what... not someone who can replace the pressence of my MIL's two sons. With one of them almost permenantly in China... and facing the prospect of the other moving to KL for a year... how would she feel? I fi were her... I will just feel so lonely.

Well... of coz, if he does not take this up... when will he? Opportunities do not always come twice. U never know... when it knows on our door again... we may be with a kid already. Then... how's that even possible for me to cope then!

Shermeen.... thou shalt not be selfish.....

Anyway... disclaimer here is....this may not even happen. But, he did bring it up to me... and coincidentally... the very next day after he brought this up... he was asked to go KL for a month. It was like God wanted to put me through a test. A test to see if I can even last a month without him....

Once again.... honestly I don't know. But I dun rule out the possibility of this happening.


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